Useless

I feel useless lately. I'm in the place where prophets were born and miracles, as well as disaster, happens daily- continually.
You know whats really sad- theres atleast 15 Qurans in my grandparents house and i brought schoolwork with me and I havent touched either- not that the two even compare.
But still. I feel useless.
I can make myslef feel better by saying I atleast appreciate the greatness of the land I come from- which I do, I really do- I love Palestine. I will always love Palestine.
But thats really not enough, I need to start making an effort to better myself while Im here- acadimically, and most importantly religiously. I have so many amazing sources here- including my Arabic speaking family that understand and have studied the holy Quran much more than I have. I need to take advantage of these things.
Allhumdullillah I do feel like I have grown spiritually- putting yourself in situations where you can rethink your life and all your decisions and appreciate all the things you've learned is a great feeling. Im fortunate enough to atleast have plenty of time to just sit and think- I've been doing a lot of that, but now its time to take it up a noch! :)